I pick up my sharpie to draw a line on the calendar through one more day that has passed. Almost doesn’t matter at this point if I do or not. The days meld together like one as the cycles of everyday routines continue without interruption. It’s just another day of the continued quarantine that slowly crushes the spring vibes. Each moment that passes feels like one wasted as sun light slowly creeps across my living room floor through this day’s passing. A restlessness in me gives me pause I’m unmotivated to move but yearning to get out. Within the stale air memories invade me. I think of times when life was more fun, times that I had all my friends around and reflections of my journey thus far. The breeze of evening air brushes across my skin and I glance at my hands seeing their strength and age. I realize that I am where I am, and I am good. I have always had the strength to make it through. I am more than I give myself credit for. There is so much more to be thankful for than there is to be afraid of. Suddenly there is something to look forward to once again. An understanding that I’m still here and for a reason. Now I can smile one more time and embrace the unknown. For in the unknown there is great potential. I look up in to the sky from my window to see birds flying high amongst the skyscrapers. It's comforting because their very existence tells a story. A story of ‘impossible’ things becoming possible all the time.
In this time of quarantine we are asked to have patience and to remain still. Observing and allowing the many thoughts that come in to our minds to pass through. It can be difficult not to give in to doubt and all the anxiety surrounded around financial matters. If you’re human it’s safe to say that you’ve had these feelings and thoughts of inadequacy before. But after those times you can remember moving on from them and having better days, better memories, and new fresher experiences when the storm passed. One of the good things about looking back at the past is seeing how things got better right after things were much harder. The hindsight builds up our optimism and allows us to have more faith in a great and better future. We can Stand confident in knowing that there are better days ahead.
Although this is encouraging to know we can’t help but to feel the discomfort of this difficult time now. When you cut your hand you have to first clean it up, bandage it, and then wait for it to heal. This is a perfect example of what has happened with the corona virus and how it has affected our country. It cut us, we’re cleaning it up, bandaging the wounds, and waiting for it to heal. Just like we hate waiting for a cut to heal we also hate the process of dealing with the corona virus’s impact on our lives. We are still in the early stages of bandaging things up and so we have to just hold on during this process. I believe that we will get through this, but it will just require time to heal us. Be patient during this period. All we have is time and this time will inevitably pass. Let’s hang in there so we can get to those other possibilities that await us on the other side of this phase.